Why I Resisted Fasting for Spiritual Growth

Updated: Apr 24, 2020

For a long time, I resisted fasting for spiritual growth based on my own heart. I knew that I was not approaching fasting with the proper intentions, so rather than continuing to parody a worthy act of faith, I decided it was better not to participate. Even when I heard from others about the spiritual benefits of fasting, I believed I couldn't do it properly. Now, I wonder if I was right to give up so quickly.

A little backstory. Ever since my husband and I welcomed our first child at age 21, I have ridden the roller coaster of weight gain and loss that so many women can't seem to get off of. With four pregnancies over ten years, my metabolism has been through the wringer. Plus (lucky me) as I age, the weight becomes harder and harder to lose. I have a constant, nagging voice telling me that if I could just pull myself together, I could go back to the size I feel I should be.

My experience with spiritual fasting painfully highlighted where my focus was.